The comments to your very raw article are indicative of the dilemma you find yourself in. As one of two people paddling a canoe for the past 43 years, I have found that all weights must be pulled and all slack given to stay the course. I wish you well. Yes, sometimes you paddle against the current and other times you have the rush of the current behind you. Stay the course. You believed in yourselves once... do not toss that lightly into the stream. I wish you the best. Nicely written