Kickstarter for Self-publishing?

The launching, will it work? Part 3

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So, the horse has bolted from the barn and I am wondering if maybe I should have chosen the pony instead. The campaign is launched and you can see all my mistakes here.

Nerves? Yes. Like any writer there is the trepidation of putting one’s work before the ravenous jaws of the public. Perhaps even worse, is the greatest fear that rests in judging ourselves. I am numb like a child who has wet their pants and stands before his parents, abandoned, on an island of shame, searching for the boat of kindness. The moment before a campaign launches there is a wrestling within, a delicious mixture of desire and paralyzing fear.

That’s what some aspects of this launch have been for me. No wet pants (!) but still the tingle of excitement laced with the all-consuming, self-perceived threat of failure and recrimination.

Sure, we all know the ‘fail forward’ axioms, ‘get knocked down seven times but rise eight.’
Yep, got that.
‘Bin there, done that.’

Still trepidation is a tenacious taskmaster.

I’ve performed on the stage before huge crowds in Europe and Asia, yet when it comes to speaking one’s own words, presenting one’s own babe, the twisting torture of the moment before can never be…